Sometimes I wonder if I would ‘hang out’ with family members if we weren’t related. Kind of an odd thought and yet….I am not sure I would. Course, I tend to be a loner, so….
Visits from Family
Each time I visit a family member or family comes to visit me, I get to know myself a little bit better. The older I get …the less I know about life and the more comfy I get in my own skin. At 45, I am finally able to let my guard down. Not completely, however more than last year or even 6 months ago.
I have no BIG secrets. No BIG dramas in my life. I lead a pretty uncomplicated, simple life and am hopeful I am able to be an example of some sort of grace.
I have always been one to keep those closest to me at a distance. FEAR! Fear they may find out who I really am. That I am not who I say I am. Fear that they will see my imperfections….all of them. That they will find out, I am not the person that my ego likes me to believe at times. A person who is bigger than life! …(I am laughing as I type this, see my ego lies sometimes).
When I allow myself to be a member of the human race, no better than, no less than anyone, I am FREE! I can be transparant. I can allow others into my world. I can love freely and unconditionally. I can see others’ imperfections and not judge and criticize them. I can love myself imperfections and all.
I am filled with gratitude that I get to have this experience in life. I get to have relationships with family members that are healthy and they actually want to be around me today. I get to travel to see family and they travel to see me.
I get to be perfectly imperfect upon each visit and allow just a little more LOVE to shine in!