NO MORE Abuse!

….Letting GO!!!

After completing my 2nd marathon in 2006, I stopped running marathons. I felt inspired and grateful to have had the opportunity to do two of these 26.2 runs for the Leukemia Team in Training.  These events had coaches, mentors and others that were training and fundraising. This was an amazing opportunity to train in a fun, healthy environment and not feel the need to beat myself up for not running fast enough.  I was truly happy to just be able to complete them!

The yoyo dieting continued.  I tried eating one meal a day, only eating protein, eating 6 times a day.  Nothing seemed to help with the OBSESSION of FOOD!  It was 5 years ago when I gave up sugar.  This helped tremendously.  I also started eating religiously 3 meals a day.  No more skipping meals and then crashing and burning. No more eating hot fudge sundaes for dinner and avoiding actual meals.  This was the 1st time in my life I can remember eating and really taking care of myself.

The insane exercising seemed to stop as well.  Today I allow myself one day a week to eat a couple pieces of dark chocolate.  Every so often I make a batch of Gluten free low sugar cookies.  I still eat 3 meals a day, sometimes more depending on my level of activity.  They are smaller meals.  I practice not getting too hungry.

I recently found a gentler work out program that seems to fit the gentler lifestyle.  Not to say the work outs are not hard, they just are not punishing to my body.  I used to feel if I was not sore for a week, had massive stomach aches, or maybe trouble walking the next day, I was not pushing myself hard enough.  Not the case anymore.

I stumbled upon BFit&Well Personal Training via Social Media.  I go 2 to 3 times a week and run (jog) 1-2 times a week.  I am doing weights, pushups, sit ups and FUN exercising.  I am working on strengthening my CORE.  I had a preconceived idea of what this was going to be like.  In just 3 weeks, I feel better and stronger than I have felt in a long time.  If I miss a day I do not beat myself up.  I am finding that having a schedule and people that I meet with helps me to be more accountable to ME.

I live in Anchorage, Alaska where we are going into the dark season.  It is this time of year that is so important to take care of my mind, body  and spirit.

In writing about my FOOD/Exercise issues, I am hopeful that I will be able to reach out to someone struggling with this battle.  I Encourage you to reach out and write about it.  I believe together we can conquer, walk thru, overcome ANYTHING!